The Love Of A Mother

    24 May,2010                                215th POST

Tuesday

7 p.m

Dear Friends,

     Good Evening!

 It's raining here,in Thrissur.Last two days,it was very hot!Showers are so refreshing to our mind and soul!You know what,I restarted my Malayalam blog yesterday and a short post was published.:)It was not at all difficult as I thought.My dear friend helped me giving instructions and I am so thankful to you,dost!:)I was thrilled like a small child after writing the post in my Mother Tongue.Last summer I had started my Malyalam blog and yesterday I saw 47  encouraging comments!I never did bother to check that old post;so silly!I had won the first prize in Malayalam short story competition held in college.Now,I am going to be active in my Malayalam blog-Anuvinte swapnangalum anubhavangalum[the dreams and experiences of Anu].

After reading my profle,many of my friends had asked me about my Amma's five books that are published.Amma is a retired high school teacher and was teaching  English and Social Studies in 10th std.The famous poets have taught my parents in collge and the foundation in Engish and Malayalam is very strong.Whatever we five children are in life today is due to the proper guidance,love and right direction given by our loving parents.I can not tell you how much my Amma  means to me.Today I am posting one of the poems written by Amma from her second book,Smarananjali[In Remembrance] dedicated to my loving Achan.

This is my 215th post and I am honoured Amma,dearest,your poem decorates sincerely yours today!

           The Love Of A Mother
The pride of a man breaks down,

Sick and despondent when he is!
And pathetically pinned on a weary bed.

Then,ah!what a consolation he gets
When appears his loving mother beside him.

The divine soul that looked after him,
From childhood and brought him up,
Administering to his helplessness.

Vividly he sees the enduring tenderness
In the love of a Mother to her son,

A love that transcends all other
Affections of the heart!

His selfishness,the ingratitude

And all other unworthy deceitful attitudes,
Cannot chill,weaken or reduce
Her affection to her beloved son.

Ready she is to sacrifice every comfort
For the enjoyment of her son;
Every pleasure she will reject
Willingly for the sake of his happiness!
How ecstatic she is in his fame and prosperity!

When misfortune befalls him
Dearer he is to his mother!

If disgrace settles upon him
She will still cherish and love him.

If all the world castshim off,
All the world she will be to him!

The mother loves her child,
Surely more than her life;
And more than all the mores.

When he grows up,
Into pits of bad habits
Perhaps he may fall
And in a drunken or drug addicted state,

He may even cut off her head

And hold it up as if in a revenge!

Then,on such an occasion,

The poor weeping eyes of the head

Seem to ask her'victorious son',

''My dear,is the weight of the head,

Too heavy for your hands?

Are you too tired of holding

This unfortunate,unworthy head?''

Oh!can anyone measure the depth

Of the mother's love to her son?

Can we feel the beauty,sanctity

And solemnity of this inborn love?

How indebted a son is to her mother-

A debt that he can never clear in his life!

Friends,
Amma has dedicated this poem to all the children who forget their parents  while enjoying their busy lives and who do not have time to take care of them.
Parents are our priceless blessings.Please keep this in mind.You  will be blessed!
My Amma loves all of you and her regards and prayers for you!Amma is so humble and simple!

It's Anu signing off......
Enjoy the unconditional and true love of this life!The love we can never repay!Take time to make sure that your parents are doing fine and be with them at the earliest.The love that is full of devotion and sacrifices;it is beyond all definitions;the love beyond explanation.her smile is the sunshine,the stars twinkle in her eyes!
Amma,I am so proud of you!
Thank you God,for gifting me wonderful parents!
Wishing you a beautiful and peaceful night,
Reminding you to thnik of your parents,
Trust me,Anu loves you dil se,
                               Sasneham,
                                      Anu

WHERE ARE YOU NOW?

STILL WAITING FOR YOUR MAIL................

07.09.09,

Monday

6p.m

Dear Friends,

good evening.it's still raining.our Onam celebrations started in grand scale by associations.there were two grand sadyas yesterday.cooks were brought from kerala.ada prathaman was delicious!huge pookalam was put at the entrance of the hall.cultural programmes were held.ladies wore traditional kasavu saree,fully decked with ornaments n jasmine flowers....and the celebration will last till october 2nd.:)i get thrilled at anything related to kerala.it's my enduring love for my hometown.life is not just a routine,when i relive my past.i get recharged thinking of my home.

i want to share a morning mail with you today.i love reading the life history of great personalities.and now iam back with Helen Keller.her life is so inspiring n we really learn to overcome the difficulties that we face in life.

i'm only one;

but still i'm one.

i cannot do everything,

but still i can do something.

i will not refuse to do;

the something i can do.

today when i read this greetings,i thought of my close friend who disappeared three months before.we hardly come across good friends in life;so your absence is so painful.i still cherish the beautiful moments of friendship shared from the depth of our heart!

but i just don't know;what happened n what went wrong where.as the only way to reach you is writing this post,let me pen down my feelings.:)

Dear,you are far away,

but the distance was never a problem,

it does keep us apart,

but the distance can't change;

the feelings in my heart for you.

you were always so calm n collected,

i appreciated your postive attitude always;

you are such a wonderful friend,

with amazing ways of caring.

you hardly spoke or expressed your love,

your looks are so killing,

which took my breath away!:)

you said bye before leaving for pilgrimage,

and i counted the days n waited.

but,you never came back to this friend;

as you promised for no reasons known to me;

i don't know what went wrong;

or you had to sacrifice our friendship,

at the holy pilgrim centre!

please tell me was that fair?

or are you watching me from across the miles?

i fondly remember your post dedicated to me;

that was the best gift you could offer me.

and when my post was published,

you reached me before midnight.

dear,can you still be away?

in deep silence for long?

you had left me at the sea shore,

and still i'm waiting for you alone!

did you forget it's raining heavily?

and the waves are rising high.

but i will wait patiently,

as i still believe your words.

my good wishes n prayers are with you,

and tonight,i'm sure you will have a sleepless night.

as anu is so honest in her feelings,

and she pays to be sincere n honest!

friends,stay in touch whereever you are.it makes a lot of difference.just a smile, a mail,a call,a sms-choice is yours!

it's anu signing off................

and the dedication is to my best friend who is in the hide out..................Tum kahan...........?main yahan........................''

wishing one n all a cool n peaceful night,

sasneham,

anu

THE BLESSED SOULS................

REFLECTIONS OF A SIMPLE SOUL............

WILL YOU JOIN ME?

20th july,2009

Monday,

11.30a.m

Dear friends,

Good morning!

Karkidakam is in full swing and in most of the houses,ramayana reading is going on.i'm really happy that my religious post is well received by my friends and we are still looking forward to value based life!it's a good sign.however modern we may be,the traditions n culture of our childhood do take roots strongly.

This is such a month where nature goes furious with heavy rains,wild breeze and storm.mind is not calm n stress is more.it is said that meditation creates a state of metabolic restfulness far deeper than that of sleep.lucky are those who meditate daily as it heals them from fatigue,stress n tension.meditation deals with forgetting everything for that moment and concentrating on knowing one's inner self.

I know, most of us feel low without any reasons,feeling desperate if promises are not fulfilled.just to cheer you up,i thought of sharing a forwarded mail with you.i have a good collection of thoughts n prayers,and i must tell you,i try to share them with friends.so,why not with you?we want friends to listen to us and we hardly listen!so,start talking to yourself,it's the only way to make sure someone is listening................here's the wonderful thought provoking mail i received........given a chance,in my next anchoring,i would like to recite this, with the right voice modulation and reaching the lines straight to your heart!

I asked God to take away my habit.

God said,No.

It is not for me to take away,but for you to give it up.

I asked God to make my handicapped child whole.

God said,No.

His spirit is whole,his body is only temporary.

I asked God to grant me patience.

God said,No.

Patience is a byproduct of tribulations;

It's not granted,it's learned.

Iasked God to give me happiness.

God said,No.Igive you blessings;

I asked God to spare me pain.

God said,No.

Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares and brings you closer to me.

I asked God to make my spirit grow.

God said,No.

You must grow on your own,

But i will prune you to make you fruitful!

I asked God for all things that might enjoy life;

God said ,No.

I will give you life,so thatyou may enjoy all things.

I asked God to help me Love others,

as much as HE loves me.

God said.............................................Ahhhhhhhhhh.........

Finally you have the idea.

I hope,all of you liked the lines and let's learn and start loving others.......................

It's anu signing off..........................

At times, for no reason,when you forget to smile,you like to be lonely,you like to argue with others,you like to snatch away the peace of mind and you want to cause others tears,

pleeeeeease,remember,GOD LOVES YOU!and you are blessed with a life full of high spirits!and you are ALIVE!BE GRATEFUL!

with tears flowing like the showers of karkidakam,

Let me remind you,tomorrow is KARKIDAKA VAVU,the no moon day.we pay homage to our beloved ones who became dearer to GOD.we,who are still alive,must take time to pay homage to the divine souls.when thousands of devotees do the rituals on the banks of nila nadi and aluvapuzha and in many other river banks and in houses,anu joins them mentally.nanda will be attending the rituals at Mazhuvanchery Mahadeva temple,on the way to Guruvayoor,under the guidance of the popular spiritual scholar,Dr.N.Gopalakrishnan.noone takes rice at night.evening sadya will be prepared at homes.frends,i tell you,observing the rituals make our lives meaningful.those who come to trichur,make it possible to have darshan at Mahadeva Temple.

when you feel like a proud peacock,think that each moment is a bonus from God All mighty.and i have started learning,pride goes before a fall.and my message for you to hold close to your heart forever, as long as you love anu is,BE BLESSED AND BE A BLESSING TO ALL!Rama Rajya will be easily prevailed.:D

updating the events,the solar eclipse is on 22nd,july.the moon will cover the sun.the Karkidaka vavu will remain till 22nd morning.eclipse starts from 5.28a.m.in all temples,poojas will start only from 8 a.m.eclipse will occur at the time of sun rise!it happens only on amavasya day!eclipse is visible to the maximum extent at 6.20a.m.hope all of you will take care!so many happenings in the month of july...............

Anu loves you all...................................

And the dedication is...................

Prem mudidth man se kaho,Sree Rama Rama ,Ram..........................

Sree Ram,Ram,Ram...............................

Wishing you days of prayers,

Sasneham,

Anu

WHERE HAVE YOU GONE?

STILL WAITING FOR YOU...
13th,july,2009,
Monday,
7p.m



Dear friends,

Good evening.heart felt thanks to all as most of you enjoyed my last post.and only when maza reminded me i realised,i had not included my bindi collection in that.yesterday,i went to Ayyappa temple,and it was due for long.the divine atmosphere,the idakka vadyam, and the well decorated idols were all enchanting.i felt nice.navagraha pooja was going on.most of the devotees don't miss the darshan of Ayyappa Swami on saturdays.we reagain peace of mind after our visit,to this holy temple.

My submission was today and it is over now.i have carried work home today n i may have to sit late night.but,now when the loneliness creeps in,i feel like writing this post.it's inevitable.so,i may have to struggle tonight finding that extra time at the cost of personal sacrifices.



In my childhood,i first saw pigeons on the roof top of the three storyed bunglaw-kamalalayam,at andathode,in my achan's house.there were many of them staying safely enjoying the vast space on the roof top of third floor.and i started liking their,''kur.............kur'' sound.the house overlooks into the paddy fields and small ponds were in between.i just love to be there for a stroll in the evening enjoying the clear sky,walking amidst the green fields,enjoying the cool breeze and often splashing the water in the ponds.and you must see,the ducks in the water!and for the first time we saw ducks ,in the fields..............and the nature has lavishly blessed andathode,madhavikutty's neighbourhood.



Here in my kitchen window,outside the net,sparrows always built their nests.they collected the straw,the rugs,the cloth pieces and all other waste materials and lived happily in their shelter.they were many and when i work in the kitchen ,their chirping was music to my ears.i always talked to them,shared my feelings and anxieties and they responded by the peculiar sounds.it was an understanding and we communicated very well.

Daily morning before leaving for work,i open the back door and there on the roof top,these sparrows,pigeons,crows and kittens will be waiting for me!i feed the with cereals,bread crumps and chappati pieces.sparrows and pigeons are happy with cereals,crows prefer pieces of chappati and kitten love rice soaked with curds.and my day is made very sincerely.

During my absence in summer,the helper,yellappa cleaned the windows and the nest was thrown away.the moment, i stepped in, i felt some emptiness ,the pin drop silence in my kitchen!i knew,my sparrows had left me!even the pigeons have disappeared.did they leave me forever?the kittens have grown into cats!i feel sad looking at the crows,drenched in rain!hardly they come to the roof!the pain of separation was unbearable!and today when the loneliness was intense,i decided to write this post.and you all know,it's always raining in my heart.



All are busy with hundreds of tasks,
Only you,my dear pets,
From the nests on my window pane,
Sang your tunes to me.
But,where are you now?
I have to share a lot of things new,
Come and listen n console me,
He's getting ready to leave,
And i know,he will never be back!
Will the music stop forever?
The sea is rough on the other side,
The waves are really fearful,
The boats are shaken very badly,
The nights are long n cool,
And it's pouring very badly.
Within the heart Anu is all alone,
I shall take leave from all other tasks,
And I'll make your nest and wait for u,
I have to walk the life's thorny path alone,
Silently n with a heavy heart,
I stand alone in the deserted road,
With the pent-up tears,
My sparrows,come back to me!
And where are the pigeons gone?
You've aroused the life long thirst to love,
And now you can't just go away.
Here,iam at the back doors,
Looking at the terrace for you,
Why did you leave me n go?
I just can't bear this loneliness any more...
Bonds cause always tears,
Still we are always bonded,
But the rest of the life,
I want to smile n see the smiling faces,
Not the tears any more! this stormy night,when the sighs are deep,
I have lost my sleep,
Come back to me,my dear friends,
Anu is waiting for you!
And i miss my butterflies,
And the humming bees,
Where are my jasmine plants,
And the cute little birds,that coo to me!
I had to leave them in trichur n come!
What a rain!so cool!and the melodies are in the air...

Anu is signing off...

Friends,let's love nature,the birds and the animals in our surroundings.once a day,let's feed them.and i must tell you,the satisfaction that we derive can't be replaced by any wealth.my achamma always used to feed the crows before having lunch and i strongly believe,the values are carried on ...

I am obliged to my friends for making this post possible by creating the right mood,and by the loving words which brought tears to my eyes and the cool images!

And today's dedication of song is...

Manjakiliude moolippattunde...
Manassil marikavidi chinthum chinthunde...

Wishing you good luck and sweet dreams,
Sasneham,
Anu

SHOWERS OF JOY

THE WAIT WAS WORTH...................

08.07.2009

wednesday,

10p.m

Dear friends,

hope all you keep fit.i was caught up between submissions and exam.imagine,getting a circular to prepare for one hour test of hundred marks and the portion given was of two hundred pages to be downloaded and studied.you tell me,was that fair?no,not at all.still,anu didn't want to give up!the real competition spirit was aroused and within two days the main chapters were discussed with my friend,smita[from payyanoor] on phone.a sort of combined study and i felt really nice.and,friends,i was the first one to finish the paper and i believe the evaluation is going on.if we fall into the category of under score,we will be sent to the city of sandlewood for updating ourselves.

i was supposed to write a post yesterday on GURU PURNIMA,but was tired.sorry,amma n nanda,i was sick.and today,i am in no mood to write about gurus as i received a forward mail full of enchanting images of rain .and you know,how rain influences my mood.

was a rainy day and every day it rains heavily.and these showers and images,made me write this post.

The cool showers pouring down,

the moist atmosphere,

the wet flowers,the shining leaves,

the roaring clouds,

what an awesome sight!

the mask was removed,

the true self was discovered,

her life is being shaped,

all its joys n sorrows,

the gains n losses,

are being taken care of,

by someone far away.....................

now the flowers fall up on her,

like the soft touch of her friend.

when the night is deep,

and the world falls into silence,

he is awake with a song in his heart,

to watch her closely.

her forgotten happy days,

were recalled now,

she doesn't bother to analyse,

what's right or wrong,

as she knows,she doesn't have,

miles to go before she sleeps.

she has been called,

to the joy -feast of this earth,

is it temporary?

''no',her mind whispers.

will the showers stop?

not on her love filled mind.

she was unaware ,

what made him burn,

he laughed but cried inside,

but still he stood by her.

from the sea of darkness,

from the depths of sorrows,

why did he pull her out?

she awaits for an answer.

in the cool evenings,

on a lovely road,

as darkness gathers around,

when her soul had lost,

the guiding light,

he reached her spreading joy,

and how can she let him go?

he had confidence in his beliefs,

he wanted her to see,

the brighter side of life,

he has a solution for her problems.

with choking voice, but full of love,

he often said,''i don't want to let you go''.

that was real heart breaking note,

from the depth of his heart.

let her build a world of dreams,

and he has given her dreams,

she has spring in her feet now,

and she sings the songs with him.

her soul has woken now,

and her world is full of joy!

with laughter spread,

soft music flows,

guitar is played,

she can hear his words,

even without words.

so much of life she has now!

when it's pouring out side,

let her sleep well,

dreaming a rosy future!

and she is guarded well!

it's anu signing off...................

the song for the night is,

kattile mynahaye pattu padippichatharu...................?

[who taught the song to the mynah of the forest?]

some one enjoys taking snaps when it rains and the sound of the rain drops bring back the mynah to his mind...................

to him,who is so calm and composed,

who meditates to gain peace of mind,

who reminds anu,blog is not life,

to that friend of mine,

this post on rain is dedicated.

but anu tells him,she gives life to her posts and her heart beats are faster,when the posts are written.and her approach to each post is so honest and sincere.

anu loves one and all................

and the song dedication is...........

itna main chahoo tujhe.............,

koyi kisi ko na chaha.....................

good night and sweet dreams!

sasneham,

anu

10.30p.m

SHALL WE MEET AGAIN?

I DON'T KNOW, WHEN...........

20th,june,2009.

saturday

dear friends,

yesterday i walked in the rain while plucking flowers from the garden.and by night,i was running high temperature,my body was shivering.without telling amma, i could manage till 4 a.m.it was terrible,having head ache and feeling helpless when it was pouring outside.today,most of the time i was on bed,sleeping on antibiotics.i must sleep early today.but before sleeping,i've an urge to write something as just one day is left before leaving trichur.

unknown and mysterious are the ways of the Almighty.............never did i expect that i would be laid up with high temperature.but,thanksto the Providence,that

i could reach out to u!

the night is cool and my blanket is waiting.

but,i must pen down these lines from my heart.

it's about the happenings of the last one month,

and i must share them with you,my friends.

the days in trichur,from first week of may,

passed so fast at the wink of an eye.

i never knew i will be crossing many new faces,

some walked by,some touched my heart,

i must say thanks to all those friends,

anu is not bad in feelings and thoughts.

some got confused for the affection showered,

let them remain so,as i'm tired,

hey,i just can't prove what i'm,

my memories start flowing now.

how can i forget my dearest friend,

who offered me a garden full of flowers.

when i needed a shoulder,he was always there,

and he taught me how to be strong.

thanks a lot,guruji,for the moral support,

thanks for being my source of inspiration.

i'm so happy i'v e come across you in my life,

you are the only one who forced me to write a post daily.

when i was broken,someone was awake,

consoling me by his music,

and he played guitar at night,

dedicated the wonderful poem for me!

and i recited the poem aloud.

giving life to each word!

that was really wonderful,

someone listening to you patiently,

music has the healing touch.

and this double shaded rose is his gift to me!

i know,you don't like me saying,'alvida'.

how can i forget the young angry man,

who could be so tough with me,

still you could offer a musical video for me,

and i'm still thrilled about that!

good that we parted our ways,

just the scars will be deep inside.

hey,my first blogger friend,

whom i admire the most,

he is always the first,but chooses to be the last,

for whose posts the whole world awaits,

and his fan the pink panther,

who prefers the superfast to travel,

but for the first time,

i have become a friend of a panther,

what ideas flow humorously,

nice knowing you,dear.

my loving brother in the desert,

who taught me how to love rain,

who made me realise how much,

sincere bond can be built,

with unknown minds.

i still love your poems,

but you are not writing these days,

my young friend at tvpm,

who needs a word of cheer always,

he is an upcoming artist,

and you have a special place in my thoughts.

dear tej,you are always in the hide out,

and you come on line and make my eyes wet,

be in touch dear,i will miss u,

you are the only one from my place.

here,he is who wrote about the temple,

the ambalakavu stories,

and dear trichur friend,

thanks for all suggestions and ideas,

how can i leave you my dearest,

who has forgotten the promises?

you 're the first to dedicate a photo post for me.

and the words made me cry!

after a pilgrimage you forgot trichur,

but i know you read my posts:)

it's a great feeling,as if you're near!

someone reached me at late night,

totally shattered and broken,

he is so calm and cool,

nice knowing you friend,

the only sincere and loyal friend,

from outside blogosphere,

who never fails to make me smile,

with his morning mails,

many came and went without leaving amark,

and some have left deep scars for ever,

grateful i'm to all the good souls,

they have made anu spread a smile,

and when i'm leaving trichur,

on 22nd,monday,night,

i really wish there shoud be heavy rain,

as anu can cry her heart out!

amma is sleeping now.each day i will be waiting to come back and hug you,dearest amma.but i don't know,when next.

i will be breaking one of my resolutions.anu has decided to meet two of her unknown friends in chennai and feels so excited about that.i could not say 'no'to you as your sincere friendship has touched my heart.don't ask me questions and clarifications on who os who........:) keep guessing which frame you fit in!

it's anu signing off.....................................

this post is dedicated to trichur,that filled my mind with fragrance of friendship.

and my friend taught me,''no girl/man is worth your tears,but once you find that is he/she won't make you cry.''i heard you,right?

anu will be out of range for one week,and hopefully back to join you by end of june,once she reaches her destination!but posts will be less,while work will be more!i will never be in this relaxed mood!

hey,to my north indian belt,i have to get gifts!they love chips,bananas and murukku!

thanks for my friends who wished me speedy recovery,but i'm still suffering from fever.

for the first time i completed the post,the next day..............i read out the post to amma and ettan and to be frank,i had to skip a few lines.:)[don't tell amma,please.............]

have a great day ahead and wish me bye............shall we meet again?

sasneham,

anu

RAIN DROPS CAUSING TEARS....................

would you like to join me?

17th june,2009

12.oo,noon,

thursday

dear friends,

today is muppettu thursday,a very auspicious day,specially in krishna temples.there will be too much rush at sree krishna temple,guruvayoor.i feel sad,i could not have darshan of unnikannan.every day morning,i fondly pamper my kannan on my template.i just can't explain you,i talk to kanha,share my sorrows and update the daily happenings.i offer special prayers for the needy.and i smile and i feel happy and in high spirits!the day is made!the positive energy flows,outwitting the negative ones.but i just don't know,when it starts raining,the heart beats are fast and i start experiencing thrilling emotions!

it's raining heavily in trichur,

and i have to leave here,shortly,

i'm really feeling gloomy,

i can't think of going away.

the sun doesn't shine brightly,

and the nights are darker now.

my heart sighs n sighs heavily,

and the loneliness creeps in.

sitting near the window,

trying to hold the rain drops,

i put my hands outside,

i must get a few drops.

recollecting the yester years,

anu is desperate to sail those paper boats,

but where is her friend,who should join her?

there were promises of togetherness.

and when it rains,and the showers are thicker,

she wants to hold his hand,you,

whom she loved the most.

and thinking about him while it's raining,

she blooms like the jasmine plant.

anu wants to walk long distances,

rain drops splashing all over her body,

and still she burns n burns with her feelings,

and crying her heart out ,she walks,

as no one will hear her crying,

in the heavy rain,lightening and thunder,

knowing not where she is treading,

will you be there,dear,

to pacify her ailing heart?

and awaiting your response,

shivering in the showers,

she is in a dream world!

it's anu signing off.................

this poem is written without any draft like all other posts and it took only fifteen minutes to reach the last line.anu dedicates this poem to the great soul who wants to wipe the tears and to walk with her,feeling the rain:)

and today,when anu wishes all,

HAPPY BUDDIE'S DAY,

she must get an answer as it's still raining...............

thanks alot dear guru,for the wonderful image on feelings while raining.it speaks my heart............

and here are the beautiful lines dedicated by the sincere friend,

'' Aawaz koyi kehati hai ha koyi,

koyi nazar phir aaye na kyun,

jaane kahaan se aahat hai,

aayine mei koyi hai..........''

hello,where did you learn mind reading?

love you,all guys,deep from my heart..........

sasneham,

anu

ANU'S PRANKS

THE TINKLING OF GLASS BANGLES

KUPPI VALA KILUKKAM

17th june,2009

wednesday
9a.m

dear friends,

good morning!it's raining and the leaves are trembling,the blooms are withering and my butterflies are not dancing.trichur is cool.today is mithunam,3rd[malayala masam].

before going out to enjoy the rain and the cool showers on my face,i must write this post.

it was another day,when i went out with achu[ash] to catch up with some urgent work.i never like to shoulder responsibilities,try to shirk them always.as nanda was not with me,i had to be in another role doing al the must do work.we went to the tailor first.as usual, the clothes were not stiched and another date was given.as my holidays are going to be terminated,this time i gave her a final date. and when we reached the road,i remembered,my handbag was not with me.this happens many times with me,the bag,the umbrella etc, i forget them very often.achu went back and got it.we left for 'goodwill'.and i must tell you,this is exclusively for ladies and hence it turns out for gents too. they will get all the gifts needed here,for their sweet hearts for any occasion.[hey,guys of trichur,it's near kalyan silks].

i simply love to spend my time here,admiring the thousands of glass bangles,the marvellous colourful world of bangles.when the salesman asked for the saree to choose the matching bangles,to my horror,i found out,the kanjeepuram saree was left with the tailor and i had brought another carry bag in which the tailor had kept someone else's clothes,cut and to be stiched. i took my moblie and called her.

''maya,please,i left the saree with you and your clothes are with me.''''yes,i know''.''please take an auto and come to goodwill.i'm waiting.''so,sweet of her,she agreed.

achu was busy on her mobile and i had to pass time till maya reached.so,i took out my digital cam and started taking the photos of the glass bangles,in different colours and shapes.within ten minutes,maya reaches and the problem was solved.the gents know how to mix and match the colours,really well.what a beautiful combination!meroon and yellow!from my childhood i always loved these bangles.the tinkling of these bangles.and when i write,or shake my hands,they make the sound!what a music to ears!i love temple festivals,the wonderful atmosphere,the fragrance of insence sticks,different flowers,the well decorated idols of gods and goddesses,the devotional songs,and the different stalls.i was confused which colour will suit me and which bangles look more beautiful.wearing those bangles from the wrist to the elbow,laughing and giggling ,the days were enjoyed the best!and the broken pieces were kept safely to weld and make chains.but i love to wear the bangles after putting mehandi[milanchi].

it should be that way;the soft hands adorned with bangles and smelling mehandi,holding a rose!what a perfect scene!they remind me of suhra and majnu!

hold them softly,and the tinkles of glass bangles and the jasmine flowers on the plaited hair and a cute smile on the rosy lips,and the traditional attire.............what more can you ask for?

and for that dream girl,wait impatiently.this is the dream i dedicate you today,when it's raining...............

it's anu signing off.....................

with a word of cheer,and a prayer in my heart i wish all of you a bright and peaceful day!

anu loves you all.

at times,i do feel,how foolish i am to spend my precious time over these evanescent silly things!but anu can't change.she is silly and simple. :)

thanks for your dedication my friend,the song still lingers......

hum dil de chuke sanam,

tere ho gaya he hum,tere kasam.................

sasneham,

anu

BY THE RIVER SIDE...........................

MY HEART SKIPS A BEAT.............................

16th may,2009

9a.m

tuesday.

dear friends,

good morning!it rained yesterday night and trichur is cool.what apleasant atmosphere.the last few days,i was busy,travelling wide beyond trichur,visiting relatives and the last minute shopping before leaving.bygone memories haunt me when i see this beautiful photos.on the way to kochi,we had a stop over at aunt's place by the river side of aluva puzha.always i loved this place.the backyard of the house stretches to the river and the steps take you straight to the river.what a greenery!we can see the river through the plants.the river is silently flowing......and on the steps,enjoying the cool breeze and the fresh air,i would like to read chetan's 'the three mistakes of my life'.i don't know how many times i've read it.or i can go for,'the english teacher'by r.k.narayan.

and yes,the coffe is a must in the thermos.then anu is in another world,a world of her own,where there are no arguments,no conflicts,no question answer session,no botheration.and the heart is filled with the soft feelings,and the mind is floated high above.have you experienced this kind of feeling?with no one beside me,and no anxiety whether i will be losing that friend,i can spend long hours enjoying the marvellous feast for eyes and mind.the river persuades me to think of the paramathma.it flows peacefully to meet the ocean,reminding me that all of us have to move forward to join our saviour,the almighty!

we forget to acknowledge for the smiles we received,for the kind gestures,and the love showered on us!someone somewhere always prays for us.let 's be grateful............please send the mail,make a call or leave acomment if you have to say or if you have forgotten to say,''thank you''.it does make a difference.please do it today for your anu,and then make it a habit. :) it simply works wonders!

''Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life.

it turns what we have into enough and more.

it turns denial into acceptance,

chaos to order,confusion to clarity.

it can turn a meal into a feast,

a house into ahome,a stranger into a friend.

gratitude makes sense of our past,

brings peace for today,

and creates a vision for tomorrow''.

it's anu signing off...........................

i want to express my gratitude to every one of you who have come to my page leaving behind a word of cheer,appreciation and encouragement .i value your suggestions.

posts will be reduced now,as i'm leaving shortly.............

have a great day...............anu loves you all.and when it was pouring,anu could write apoem in hindi and her friend gave music and it was sung melodiously.............oh!it was real music,guys!someone sings so softly when the night is dark and the rain falls with rhythm.an unforgettable night at trichur! :)

a:) for all..................special thanks to my mentor for the quote.and i must mention the last comment for the previous post and the call as they made my night.................and to add to my spirits,it was raining...................so,anu had smile and a prayer to take to bed while hugging amma and sleeping..................

and i dedicate this post to my friend,who played guitar and gave music to my lines and who sang it for me!thanks alot,as i needed that yesterday...................and a pat for anu who wrote apoem in hindi! :)

have a great day...........

sasneham,

anu